Money, money, money...

I was able to do a bit of work today on the computer...

I spent most of my time going through e-mails and the work that my assistant in London is doing.

However I was also able to prepare invoices for the work I had done before I got sick and send those off. They are probably going to be some of the last invoices going out for a while.

If I was an employee this would actually be a relatively easy situation. I would just sit at home, be sick, get better, go through the treatment, have positive thoughts and get on with the rest of my life. As an employee here in France I would be completely covered financially and my salary would continue to just magically arrive in my bank account at the end of each month.

As I am not an employee when I do not work I do not get paid. I can't exactly bill clients for time I spend lying on the couch trying to swallow. September, with all of the hospitalisation and treatment, is basically a write-off. However I am hoping that I will be able to work a few hours a day throughout the radiation treatment so as to be able to bill something throughout. The house and car payments still have to be made and the social charges, from which I am certainly benefeting right now, have to be maintained. I'll know more about what my possibilities are once I meet an oncologist prior to starting the radiation therapy. Desney and I have already talked a bit about what our possibilities are or more appropriately are not. However until we know what my limitations are going to be it's not worth worrying over at the moment.

I admit I am worrying about one thing at a time at the moment and living hour-by-hour. It's amazing how much of my life is spent worrying about other people's problems and finding solutions. This is one of the first times in my life that I'm worrying about me and my problems and it takes a bit of getting used to.

My only priorities at the moment: Get over the surgery - Build up my strength again - Get through the radiation therapy - Positive Thoughts Throughout