Bad News

Dr. Girard called me this afternoon with the results of the biopsy they did on the tumour they removed from my neck.

It was not what I wanted to hear. The tumour was cancerous. The tumour was actually a secondary tumour in that it is the product of another tumour and not the primary tumour itself. This means there is another tumour in my neck area. This means that they are going to have to find it as quickly as possible and they are going to have to remove it (surgically) as quickly as possible.

But even worse news was that I am either going to have to go through x-ray therapy or chemotherapy to completely kill of all of the cancer cells in the region so that they do not come back and produce other tumours in the future.

I have to go see an ENT (ORL in French) specialist tomorrow morning for a full internal exam of the area and to schedule the rest.

I spent most of the rest of the afternoon crying...

I called Desney and told her immediately after Dr. Girard told me.

When Desney got home and the girls got home from school I told the family and explained what is going on. Jessica was very upset and ran away to her room. Alexandra I don't believe has fully understood the gravity of the situation which is perhaps not such a bad thing.

I went up and had a long talk with Jessica one-on-one. I shared my thoughts with her. How sad I am. How angry I am. How sorry I am. The stereotypical question of "Why me???". She replied with the stereotypically egotistical teenager's response of "Why you? ... Why ME???"

We finally settled down and watched a movie (Die Hard 3) and ordered from pizza hut...

I spent most of the evening crying...